I need help asap me my bf & anotha guy ;; (i doubt any1 can answer this question) & pretty long too srry . =\?

ok so basically ive been w. myy mansz for like a year noww(new yrs made iht 1 yr) we took a brake for like 2 months durin that tymee & like i was sortta seein another guy well not seein buht like tlkinn too himm or watevaa for thse 2 months . well anywayss i greww alot of feelings for thee dudee & we ended up havin (X) only once thoo buht then like out of nowhere my bf asked me baqkk out . i asked the dude wat was guhdd between us andd he got mad about the fact that my bf asked me baqk outt & stuff ( idk whyy ) soo he just sed he was guhnna do himm and for mee to bee wiht my ex . dat was like 4 months aqoo . well anyways me & the dude neva stopped tlking & we basically neva changed the way we felt about eachother . like we kept everything the samee . buht me & bf always been the same too . & like i doo have (x )w. my bf buht i had (x) the other dude another tyme after the first timee . & that i was wiht my boyfriendd . so yah basically i greww more feelings for both off emm . ive nevaa been in any situation like dis . buht yah new years was me and my bfs anniversary and like i told the dude we hadd to doo sumthing about the situation . wee sed we was guhnna be the same buht wiht our limits . like no (x) and stuff . my bf thinks ive stopped tlkin to the guy liek b4 and like idk everytime imm wiht my mans i feel like the other dude doesnt igsist and everytime im wiht the other guy i cant stop thinkin bout my bf . soo basically i was thinkin off completeinn cuttin the dude off . buht like imm scared cause i wanna be faithfull to my manz buht i like neverr see him andd like we just recentlyy stopped chyllin and seein eachother because his pone got disconnected soo ihts hard too get in contact wiht himm and imm ALWAYS wiht the other dude . & the other guy treatss mee guhdd too buht like hes single & stuff soo he cann always just goo do sumthing wiht annther gurll . likee idk wat to doo . i want to cut him off buht then agin i dont buht then again i want t be faithful to my bf buht thenn again i dont wanna feel lonely cause the other dude keeps me companyy . oman i honestly think noone can answer diss for me !!!!!